Stephanie Gee: July 2012

In birthday\, fashion

it's been a rough week for me, letting down the people i love the most is hard. sometimes you intent to do the right thing, to do something nice. but it seems like what you did is wrong. i realize now that the only place where i can totally surrender is to God. so i'm sorry for that "someone" that i hurt :(. really, i do hope you understand that deep down i know i'm not a bad person.

also in life we often complain a lot, feeling like it's never enough. we always want more, especially when we see others that seem to have a beautiful life, more than us. now I've been in that phase, where all i can do is complaining. it's hard to me to accept myself, and to deal with all my minorities. it's hard for me to see others succeed, and i looked at the mirror, "i see the plain me, nothing exciting happened". but soon i learned that all good things happened to those who waits. all you gotta do is Surrender. yes, give all of your worries to God, and let He answers our prayer. but waiting isn't always that easy. the time , you just never know it, and all you see is everything fall apart. so quickly.

well, in my 18 years of life, i tried to learn as many as possible. i'm still childish, i like to do things that sometimes just felt so dumb, but i like doing that. but one of the things that i'm learning really hard is to be mature. to let go, to accept, to feel thankful all the time, because you need to appreciate the things you had now before you lose it. that's the kind act i'm playing now, being grateful and simply enjoy each second of my life.

to be honest, i'm a thinker kind a person. i'm not an introvert, actually i am someone who loves to tell stories, i'll open myself easily when i feel comfortable with that person. but it's not as easy as it looks like, i often think a lot, and that thinking drives me crazy. that's why when you saw my "prom post" you'll saw that i won the most Hyperbolic award. well it's not just because of my act, it's also because of the way think about things. now i learned that no matter what happens all you need to do is just take it easy. i don't wanna think too much and exhaust myself. i wanna enjoy life, like what other people did. :)

anyway sorry for this long writing! this is another shot i did, and i really happy that my Juice String shoes had just arrived. love this shoes with all my heart!

black cropped top - unbranded, skirt - unbranded, shoes - Juice String. accessories - yuan and rubi, belt - yuan

this is the awesome Bonnie Wedge from Juice String.

So enough of my gloomy post! i just really need a place to share my feelings :) but deep down i know i'll be alright!
well, see you in my next post!
GBU :)