"Live and let go. Don't be held by what you can't control. Keep moving forward"

 

Hi guys how have you been? It's been almost a month since my last post, and i'm sorry for that. A lot of things happened in November. Yup, a lot of difficulties too. Many things that I had planed out didn't work out, and got me thinking, "Am I a control freak?", and I guess that is the area where I oftenly feel dissapointed. I tend to plan things for my life and future, then when something knocked me down, I fell a part, because I'm not prepared for the plan B plan.. But then, November almost ends, and it thought me a valuable lesson. Actually this lesson is similar with the quote, "When life give you lemonsm, make lemonade!" Indeed that is true! So let me tell you my November Lemons story :)

So first, I broke my phone. Originally I use Samsung Galaxy S4, but then It won't start or charged because of the battery and Internal problem. (I learned now, not communicating with anyone for a whole week was not a good feeling), then my brother gave me his old phone, Samsung S3. Then you know what guys? I'm too cleaver, the phone droped and cracked the LCD (now let me tell you, that's a record because I had used that phone for only 3 days), then my laptop got issues too! (my photos and all my data were there, hopefully I could fix it when I go back to Indonesia), Then my curling iron broke too, and then many more.. As you can see many things didn't turn out they I wanted it to be. The thing that bugs me the most is that I couldn't use my laptop for a month or so..

Then one day I was so pissed off due to my situation, and I asked God, "why do You let bad things keep on happening to me?", as simple as that, God gave me His answer. He wants me to figure things out, creatively, because there is a way out.

In every situation that you faced, you could either be pissed of and be mad all day, or you could think of a solution, and try to make things better.

As for me , I learned to trust God, and let Him take care of my life.

 

So guys try to think the brightside out of everything! eventually good things will happen, if it meant for us, so keep moving forward, and have faith <3 em="">

 

Also, the photos for my blog are mostly in my laptop (hopefully i could get it recover), so here is my old shot that I didn't consider at first to post.

"When life is sweet say thank you, and celebrate. When life is bitter, say thank you and GROW"

Hi guys! I just realized how long I had abandoned my blog. Yes I know.. 2 weeks without posting anything and that's bad! I had promised before that I will update on a regular basis, once in a week. So do mind my excuse this time :)

So notice the "all caps lock" word in my quotes? Hint : It starts with a G! Well you know, it's GROW, and honestly it's the area where I put my mind a lot lately. As you know this is my last year as a university student. You know, I never got tired saying this but.. time do flies so fast! I'm so  blessed, and grateful for everything that happened in the past, I've been experiencing so many things so far in my university life. but ending it is kind a scary yet at the same time, I'm thrilled for what the futures hold. So know in my mind is that I need to stop playing around, and prepare my self for my future. 

After long thoughts, confusions, and struggles, God finally answered my prayers and gave peace in my heart. I was considering for masters at first, and many other plans bla bla bla.. As usual, being a planner is not always easy when you know you can't achieve it . But, now a new part of me is excited to start my new chapter in life, which is the working world. Yes I have decided, I want to work in Singapore. At least I want to try, and I believe if God says yes, He will open a door for me :)

But guys.. before making this decision, and having a long term peace, I've heard many terrifying stories about Singapore's working life. You know how you can't trust anyone, how they don't care about you, how they pressure you a lot without any help or guidance, and many weird and scary facts. (I've heard one of my seniors quit after 2 weeks of working) . But i believe one thing, before becoming a successful person, you need to experience the pain yourself, build yourself from scratch, until you become a strong person, with integrity.

At first my mind was stuck. All I know is that I love fashion, drawing, and make up. You know something in the "artsy" area. And sometimes my friend, instagram could be your own worse enemy, because you keep on looking at someone who succeeds with their own dreams. Is like a voice inside my heart says, "they can, but why not me?".

I may not understand what might happen to me next, but one thing for sure. I have peace in my heart that everything will be ok, it's already settled in God's hand. So surrender guys, and never compare. satisfaction is a matter of perspective, so choose to see something from the right angle, and you'll be ok!

top - MDS, skirt - cotton on, bag - celine , shades - forever 21, ring - forever 21, necklace - swarosvki, shoes - tory burch

Since I haven't post for a quite a time, Here is my recent make up look! I always like the spend at least a day in a week to experiment with my make up. It's a hobby guys, but I hope i can develop it more :) I might consider to do a full make up post next time :) probably my favorite stuff etc!

And this is all for now! Hope you guys have a great day ahead :)

see you in my next post!

xx

Stephanie Gee

Introducing : Kezia, Stephanie (me), and Shearen

and of course, we have to do the fake laugh pose....

and yes, one of the decoration was very cute. you can spot Batman riding a bicycle!

"Time is precious.. Waste it wisely"

My university life had started again, I've passed my first week! Gosh, time really flies so fast. I'm already in my third year, which means.. Yes I have to decide what's next after this. Sometimes you are forced by time to make a quick decision, but I do hope I make a good one.

Anyway, I'm actually really happy to be back to Singapore, I miss spending time with all of the people here. I miss spending quality time with myself here. I don't know if it's just me, but I think Singapore is one of the best place to have your personal time. In here, people don't care about other people business. Also, I'm happy to say that I am committed to update my blog once a week! :) It's better than last year, when I completely abandoned my blog. So every Friday I have a day off, no class! wohoo, so I'm gonna spend my time blogging, and do a DF (Discover Friday) which basically a day where I try to discover new things about Singapore!

top - topshop, skirt - MDS, shoes - bershka, clutch - debenhams, accessories - forever 21 and hnM

"If we know our own values, we should learn to appreciate them. Don't let anybody determine who you are, because you are valued in God's eyes."

Hi guys! I'm back in jakarta for a while, and I did enjoy my holiday here. But I miss being active, I miss Singapore like a lot, I miss my friends there, and every little things about Singapore.. Well, I'm coming back soon! I'm flying to Singapore this Thursday, and then back to the old routines :) any how, I want to share something I learned this week. We can't be people pleaser. How many times in your life you tend to sacrifice your own principle/opinion/feelings just to make other people happy? To make them satisfied with you? Don't get me wrong, making people happy is a wonderful feeling, It's a good deed. But the wrong this when you try too hard, when you let yourself to always say Yes no matter what, when you no longer hold what you believe in.. All I can say, and base from my own personal experience, I'm tired pleasing everyone. I used to be a people pleaser, Always wanting to make everyone around me happy, make them valued me, make them satisfied with my appearance. However I'm tired doing that, because no matter how hard I've tried I never going to be good enough for them. Thankfully, God has set my mind on the right path. I will keep on doing the right thing, but I will not try to satisfy everyone around me. I don't care about other people's judgement. They may judge me, it's a free thing but I wouldn't care. I only care about what God sees in me, He is the only judge of my life.

NOW! It's time for my OOTP (Outfit of Today's Post) time. Yes i'm comfortable wearing blues, specifically dark blues. I love this top, but as you can see the top was actually modified. I bought the top 2 years a go, but never wear it because the model was weird. Then I went to my tailor, modified it, and I liked it :). Oh yeah, I know i've been so bad updating my blog lately, and it's not that I don't care about my blog, it's just the timing. I promise in Singapore I will try to update regularly! I truly feel like myself writing this blog, and I really appreciated each one of you who followed me. Will share my blog story soon, how it all started!

top - urban outfitters, pants - unbranded, shoes - bershka, bag - marc jacobs, accessories - scape market